Tuesday, 01-08-08, 1251

Ok, so I decided that I needed to blog again.

I don't know how to describe what I have been going through. All the medical problems and stuff and how they affect me. Suddenly, today, I realized a lot of things as if I am coming out of a fog... My sex drive is back, migraines have decreased (although as of last night I may have discovered another trigger), my mood is elevating, I dreamed A LOT and they were complex (which there had been a major decrease of which I hadn't noticed until they began to return to normal), and I am tired less. I also have less of an appetite. I don't want to constantly stuff my face without reason. In fact, I have had 3 pieces of toast all morning and I am actually ok with that. My body doesn't feel run down or in need of energy. I am getting close to needing to eat, but I could go an hour or so more. See? I am even listening and understanding my body signals.

I can't handle Minnesota falls and winters. They have too negative of an impact on me. I get migraines with low humidity, colder temps, weather shifts, poor air quality (we are shut in our houses with stale, dust air this whole time), my dust allergies seem to trigger them, if I am dehydrated, lacking in activity, and so on. The majority of my triggers are things that go hand and hand with Minnesota's extreme cold seasons.

I want us to buy a small house in the Richmond area. With a decent yard. It would be so much better for me there. Better air quality, higher average humidity, warmer temps, 7" average annual snowfall, the ocean... I could still have my fruit trees but also some of the beautiful flowers that only grow a few USDA zones South of us. I want it so bad. I NEED it. I don't know if I can survive another season of this. We need to save up the money and move. I want to check it out first. Spend a week there in the winter to see how it plays out on my health, when I normally feel at my worst. Take a couple weeks vacation at other seasons too. See what spring, summer, and fall are like also. Monitor the prices of air fare so we know how much it will cost to come and see our families in MN hopefully at least once a year. I have to watch the job trends out there too. I NEED to believe though that we will be able to get the money together and things squared away to have a little house out there though. I NEED to believe that I will feel better and that it will be a better place for us going out there.

Well, enough of my therapy here. I am starting to feel a little headachey so I need to lay down before work. Lata to all the fictional people that I imagine are reading this right now!